Monday 22 February 2010

Just a few words....

...as my blog seems to have died on me and l can't find a way to resurrect it for now, I hoped that you would indulge me to say a few words regarding my current 'absence' from FFF and MMM. Below is the post I wrote last week for my Fab, feisty and fifty blog and as so many people have asked after me, l felt I owed you guys an explanation, if only a brief one for now.

Last weekend my husband asked for a separation. Our 18 yr old daughter has decided to remain with him in the family home. I am not comfortable talking about it in detail right now. My blogs are not a secret, so I don't feel able to vent my heart out here. Suffice it to say Larry and I are separating and so are the children geographically, if less than a mile apart. This is excruciatingly painful. I am not happy with this outcome, but there it is. 35 years together is a long time.

I do not know how this will pan out, I will just roll with it. We now have to legally separate and I have to find a suitable home for my son and I. We hope the children will come and go freely between them both.

I am trying to be brave and formidable instead of the weak, weepy and needy mush that lay inside me. My hope is that the children come through this whole and that we can steer them through their forthcoming exams with our support and love.

I just have to remember to breathe.


11 comments:

  1. Oh Saz. I am so sorry. There's nothing more I can say that won't sound either trite or disingenuous so I'll just leave it at that.

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  2. Very brave, Saz. Thank you. No need for more words, just heartbeats and angels' wings, I swear... xox

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  3. Oh I'm so, so sorry - really hard to find the right words, but just wanted to let you know I was, and will be, thinking of you x

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  4. Saz, that is stunningly brave and must have been difficult to write. My thoughts are with you x

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  5. So very sorry, Saz, to read such sad news. Look after yourself and the kids. As you say, they have important exams etc coming up and need to know that you are both there for them. Lots of supportive hugs for you. x

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  6. Such a sad brave post. Wishing you well and strength to get through it.

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  7. I only found you blog today through the Times lots of blog love and hugs. A really difficult time for you all x

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  8. That must have been so hard for you to write. Hugs and strength to you.

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  9. Saz, my heart dropped for you. Wishing you strength. Such grace you have. xxoosink

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